Apology

O World!
I owe you an apology
For I have judged you,
Rather, I have mocked you.
I have made fun of you
      and disdained you
and called you weak
and been bored by your stories.
Despite my protestations—
I am one of you,
I too am human.

I find myself sighing
For no good reason—
Or for the only reason that matters.
I cannot work,
I cannot sleep,
I am bored by life.
All I can do is sigh,
And long for what I do not have,
And try to find some reason for hope,
And try to find some excuse to call,
And write drivel that ordinarily I would despise.

So world,
Please accept my apology,
As I steal away and hide in shame.